So, I've been thinking...and I don't like to piss people off. I seem to do it a lot, but I don't like to...so, if I piss you off, sorry.

~Mel

This is what happened yesterday. As Marysa and I came out, Alex showed us a knife he had. I thought, "What the hell is he showing it off for?", so I asked to have it and I would turn it in. He gave it over and I put it in my bag, not even thinking about it. Then we got to ACT and I let it slip my mind. Then I went to class, forgetting about it still. Then Tracy come to me and said, "you have a knife?" I said I had gotten rid of it on the bus (I know, big mistake), because I was scared of being caught with a knife. After that, I realized I would get in more trouble caught with a knife in a lie, so I brought it to Tracy. And thats it...I had a hearing today with the Principal of ACT and the Principal at EO. Suspended. 3 days.

~Mel

So, I think it's funny that the only time I ever update any of these things is when I'm depressed. But, oh well, here I am updating. I guess I would update my LJ, but a lot of people read that and I don't feel like hearing a lot of people yelling at me. So, Nina and Min can just yell at me for everyone else. Anyway, onto what it is I am depressed about.

I am feeling so fat lately, you have no idea. Like, I feel like I can't move anymore. I don't know why, but it's really getting to me. In class today, this girl asked me what I weigh, I said 130, and shes says, "oh, well, I only weigh 120!" You have no idea how much that hurt...I jsut wanted to sit there and cry. To make me feel better a girl who heard said, "you weigh 130? No, you hae to weigh 120, and shes way to big for that, she has to be 140." But I didn't really beleive her, I just nodded my head and acted like she made me feel a lot better. Not to menchion the fact that if I keep feeling like this, I know I'll go all anorexic again, and I don't want to go there. But, I haven't eaten in a day or so, so it must be coming on, yes? Oh well, if you see the need to tell anyone about this, do so, but I don't see the need.

~Mel